Together
"I CAN SMILE BECAUSE WE'RE TOGETHER
I CAN CRY BECAUSE IT'S YOU
SO WHAT CAN'T I DO?"
- Smile Flower; SEVENTEEN (세븐틴)
I CAN CRY BECAUSE IT'S YOU
SO WHAT CAN'T I DO?"
- Smile Flower; SEVENTEEN (세븐틴)
I remember on my first week in iACADEMY, I met two people in my block- my seatmates. At first I thought that they'll be my first friends! We'll eat lunch together, laugh together, all that jazz. But they weren't- Though, they were really nice people, I guess we just didn't really 'connect'. I was alone most of the time during the first week. Breaks were lonely, groupworks seemed stressful, introductions were awkward. Until I grew the guts to talk to one of my classmates. I guess it started there.
Our block for our first term was a mix of students from all the courses in the School of Computing: Web Development, Software Engineering and Game Development. It was fun just laughing and joking around with them. Spending time with them was great, but we eventually separated according to our courses the next term. I was with my Web Development blockmates, I was nervous because I was separated from the usual people I was with. I was nervous I wouldn't get along with the people I'll be with for the next four years. Turns out I'll be friends with the person who I'll be trash with for the next three years and still counting. Of course I stayed friends with the people from my first term here, someone who I'd want to eat lunch with again, go home and just chat about how wonderful or how destroyed our lives are.
Of course I lost people, too. In many ways than one. Sometimes I think that maybe I should have kept talking to them. Maybe I shouldn't have been selfish. Maybe I shouldn't have done that. There's some guilt lingering, still. Even though it's been two years since we had a decent talk, or a year since we smiled and made memories that we'd want to hold on to forever. Sometimes I want to go to them and apologize for everything, for being selfish. But sometimes things are better off the way they currently are. That maybe pretending to be strangers is better than suffering under each other's company. But, hey, thanks for everything.
Our block for our first term was a mix of students from all the courses in the School of Computing: Web Development, Software Engineering and Game Development. It was fun just laughing and joking around with them. Spending time with them was great, but we eventually separated according to our courses the next term. I was with my Web Development blockmates, I was nervous because I was separated from the usual people I was with. I was nervous I wouldn't get along with the people I'll be with for the next four years. Turns out I'll be friends with the person who I'll be trash with for the next three years and still counting. Of course I stayed friends with the people from my first term here, someone who I'd want to eat lunch with again, go home and just chat about how wonderful or how destroyed our lives are.
Of course I lost people, too. In many ways than one. Sometimes I think that maybe I should have kept talking to them. Maybe I shouldn't have been selfish. Maybe I shouldn't have done that. There's some guilt lingering, still. Even though it's been two years since we had a decent talk, or a year since we smiled and made memories that we'd want to hold on to forever. Sometimes I want to go to them and apologize for everything, for being selfish. But sometimes things are better off the way they currently are. That maybe pretending to be strangers is better than suffering under each other's company. But, hey, thanks for everything.
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